At times I think back on how my life was before RA. It is getting harder to remember those days or to remember what it is like to be pain-free. Oh I know I will never go back to the way I was before I had Rheumatoid Arthritis, but I would like to get some sort of normalcy (is that even a word??) back if possible. I often wonder if that is even possible with RA. Even still I have to count my blessings everyday. God has surely granted me many. Just waking up and getting out of my bed, even if I do move slower than a turtle, means I am still alive. Even if I am finding the need for a cane to help me get around at times, at least I am still able to walk and use my legs. That I am even able to maintain a full-time job is a miracle and a blessing because I am able to have good health insurance. Oh sure some days are a real struggle, but somehow just when I am about to give up or give out God shows up and gives the strength I need to get through and make it home. I know somehow God has a plan and purpose in this for me. For now it is enough to know that He holds me in His hands. Thank You God for holding me, especially on the really horrible days when it becomes difficult to think past the pain and suffering of this life. Thank You for giving me a sure hope in You.