So on my last visit to the rheumatologist she tells me that my left knee is pretty bad. Something I already suspected. She says my left ankle isn’t sounding or looking to good either. Now this is news to me. I haven’t felt any difference with either ankle of foot, but she is the expert and I trust her completely. I am thankful for her thoroughness. She does a good job caring for me.
Her STRONG suggestion to me was to start using a cane when I am out and about or have to do any long walking so that I can take pressure off my left knee and ankle as much as posible. Like I said I really like my doctor, but I was upset as I left the office. I thought to myself, I am too young to be using a cane. I am not ready to be using a cane. I had heard all of her advice and understood why she was suggesting this, but in my pride I was upset and angry at my situation. In my pride. Yes, my pride. Pride can be a good thing when used in the right way, for the right reasons. Taking pride in your work or your craft makes for a job well done or a product well made. However being prideful for the wrong reasons can cause serious problems, and I knew this. Pride for the wrong reason always leads to destruction.
I got home and started to reflect on everything that she had told and what we have talked about. I started to realize that I was being prideful and foolish for not wanting to use the cane. If I want to keep my mobility for as long as I can I know I need to follow her suggestions. So with God’s help I am working on my pride issue. Don’t be surprised if you see me sporting a stylish cane one day soon.
My journey with Rheumatoid Arthritis has certainly taken me down some hard roads and as each day unfolds it seems it is leading me to places I would rather not be. This past week I had another unexpected detour on my RA journey that sidetracked me for a few days and kept me home in bed on Monday. It seems that the RA has decided that my jaw would be a good place to take up residence. So it decided to let me know that is was happily situated on the left side. Well let me tell you this was not a pleasant experience at all. It made doing everyday, ordinary things like eating, swallowing and talking excruciatingly painful. Not to mention that one side of my face was swollen and looked slightly different from the other. Not pretty or fun at all. I think I may have lost a couple of pounds though; so that may be one way to take off those extra pounds I have been trying to get rid off. All kidding aside though, this was rough. Thankfully it is getting better, but leaving me to wonder when it will flare up again. So not looking forward to that.
I must say though that God has been supremely faithful to me even in this valley place I found myself in on my latest RA path. Even this past Sunday when I couldn’t sing in church, I found myself singing the words in my heart and felt Him so near to me, that I had to cry from the joy of having Him hold me. SO I have to say that in many ways even though my road is hard there are many rays of sunshine and unspeakable joy that I might have never known if He hadn’t allowed me to take this path.
As I spent time in prayer with Him this morning I got to thinking that the dawn of every new day, including this one is a custom-made gift from God specifically designed for each and every one of us, and certainly a reason to celebrate, even in the valley places that life might take us. I just want to say don’t let the distractions and worries that may come put off your celebration of this wonderful gift. I believe as we make this day and everyday a celebration we may truly find that He gives us even more to celebrate. Go celebrate your day y’all.
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Monday evening of this week I was sitting outside enjoying the cooler evening we were having here in Phoenix and doing a little star-gazing. The sky was clear and I was thinking as I enjoyed the twinkling stars of how … Continue reading
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Cup and saucer waiting. The tea kettle whistles. I sit at my kitchen table feeling the warm morning sunlight as it streams through the window, with my doggie at my feet I enjoy morning coffee and an English muffin. Ahhh. … Continue reading